Why I left you all behind – Happy Valentine’s: Poem by Coletha Albert

I grew weary of trying to fit in

I grew weary of being excluded

I grew weary of denying myself my own kind

I grew weary of silencing my own mind

I grew weary of looking over the devils in you

I grew weary of suppressing the God in me

I took a breath one day

And decided I am through

I let go

And let you all be you

While I go be me

While I go learn me

While I go where I am supposed to be

Where folks like you can’t use me

Where folks like you can’t scapegoat me

Where folks like me will accept me

Where I can pour upon them all my love

That you despised

Didn’t appreciate

And wasted

That was long ago

And not anymore…

It broke my heart over the years

One day I decided that you were being true to you

It was time that I be true to myself

And leave you behind

After all no one put a gun to my head to make me

Accept neglect and hate from you

Keeping this in mind

I left you all behind

The more I learned about myself

The more I knew

I wasn’t supposed to change

And neither are you

You won’t change me

I won’t change you

You have your own life now

And by GOD

I do too.

In these times the best Valentine’s

Is saying Goodbye

Or else…